One of them days..

Woke this morning with my knees and ankles throbbing, great one i thought..
Hobbled and got the kids sorted and decided with the help of my cyber buddy C that today was going to be the day i would sort a few things out and tie up any loose ends.Before i did this though a trek to the shop was in order so i could get some milk for my cuppa and cereals. The wind was howling and it was cold, so wrapped up with walking sticks in tow, as i went out the back door i noticed that 3 of the fence panels and fell down, great i thought, i have 3 dogs and a neighbour that can't stand them. I am unable to take them for a walk to take them to the toilet in case they pull me over what the dickens am i going to do, so before i went to shop i rang up council who told me it would be 6-8weeks for it to be repaired, what a joke??? There was no way i was going to be able to attempt to have a go, just over a yr ago yes it would be no problem but now a days i have no chance so it is a job for Scott to try and do when he gets home..
After the fence palaver i struggled to the shop, boy did it hurt, i had to stop a few times and hold on to things to ensure i didn't fall with the help of the blasted Gail force winds..Took me 45 mins to get there and back from shop a trip that would take 15 mins at most..Some days i just wish i could do the things i was able too, i would have sprinted to the shop with the help of the wind behind me, i do miss them days..
Anyway shop trip done and kettle was on so thought i would contact my doctors secretary regarding a fee they want to help with my ESA appeal..Citizens advice wrote to my doctors to ask for a supporting letter to help with my appeal, doctor wrote back saying this would be possible for a fee of £120...OMG i thought why do i have to pay that much money for a doctor to say what is wrong with me. When ESA or DLA write to my doctor it doesn't cost a thing so why such a high fee?? I have rang and spoke to doctors secretary explaining the situation, unfortunately the lady i need to talk to is unavailable so will have to wait for a phone call back..
I feel as if my head is about to explode., a long with dealing with my health and day to day living i am having to get a case together for my appeal to explain why i am not fit for work at the moment, which has been going on for nearly a year and to which i still have no actual date set. I know there are people who can be lazy and don't want to work.. I have worked all my life and would love to work again but i just feel i do not have my situation under control enough for me to be able to commit to a job, but then i hear other peoples stories and i think well they can do it so why can't i...???
I reckon i am definitely in one today, time to wusaaahhh lol and calm down, put my feet up with a nice cuppa and start this day all over again lol..